Thursday, September 26, 2002

Hey! :)

BOOKS

I read The Healer by Dee Henderson this week. It's a continuation of the O'Malley Series. Great set of books! The premise of the series is that there are 7 orphans who wind up a Trevor House and they adopt each other as family and when they grew up they legally changed their last names to O'Malley. Each book focuses in on one of the children (now who are all adults) and takes us on their journey of finding Christ and whatever else happens to be going on in their lives. They have all been excellent romantic/mystery novels. And they are very light reads.

Experiencing God is going really well. We started Unit 4 this week. I'm enjoying the daily discipline and also the new desire within me to make this a part of my life. Today we talked about God and all the different names there are for Him. We took time to worship Him and call Him by those names..it was good :)

WHAT'S GOING ON?

Not much. Keeping busy basically. We have developed a routine that works, but is tiring :) With all the kids going to school it makes it interesting in keeping up with who needs to bring what on what day and when. :) But we're figuring it out.

My major decision has yet to be decided. I'm not sure what God's waiting on, but I'm learning to follow His lead. So I'm waiting and trying not to worry or figure it out :)

THOUGHT FOR TODAY

Take time to pray for your friends. And take time to give them a call and see how they are doing..just because you want to :)

Don't forget to sound off!

Thursday, September 19, 2002

I'm BACK:)

BOOKS

The Presence ended up being really good. It was very encouraging along the lines of learning to trust when God is speaking to you. The main character has a tremendous amount of faith and trust in God. Good book :)

Experiencing God is going really well..am thoroughly enjoying. It does require quite a bit of time each day and so that seems to be taking up what little free time I have had for things like reading, getting online, or just watching tv. Which isn't a bad thing :)

There are so many things through this book that are not new, but are said in a way that it makes sense. The theme over and over is that there is no method or formula to make you a good Christian--it's all about a relationship with God. And the point is not to become a "good" person or Christian, but to enter into a relationship with God. To learn how to love Him. And then ultimately to learn how to see where He is at work around you and adjust your life to become part of it. That is so different then asking God to bless our plans or to "help" us out. It's not about us, and while we agree with that statement, how often do we go ahead and continue to make it about us? What is God doing in MY life? What does He want ME to do? We get so busy doing and pleasing God (which is important) that we forget about the relationship. There is a statement in the book that says, "You cannot bypass the relationship." I'm so guilty of doing that. I like to be busy, I like to do all kinds of things and I think that I'm doing them because I love God and I want to serve Him. But I think that if I was really honest with myself, I do them because I want to be a good person and a great Christian and I want to feel good about myself. It's not because I love God.

There was another place in the book where a church member was asked by the pastor, "Can you describe your relationship with God by sincerely saying, 'I love You with all of my heart?'"

The strangest look came over his face. He said "Nobody has ever asked me that. No, I could not describe my relationship with God that way. I could say I obey Him, I serve Him, I worship Him, and I fear Him. But I cannot say that I love Him."


That hit me upside the head yesterday because I realized that if I was truly honest, I would have to say the same thing. I would add that I respect, honor, and appreciate God. But love, I'm not so sure. To be really honest..I don't think that I know Him well enough to honestly say that. I kind of liken it unto great speakers and/or authors I have heard or read. I know a lot about them, I've seen how they develop their speeches or their stories, I'm "wowed" by them, but I haven't entered a personal relationship with them. And sometimes I wonder about my relationship with God. I say I love God, but do I spend time with him? I know I judge how a person feels about me by the amount of time they spend with me. Especially in my marriage. If Josh spent as much time with me as I do with God, our marriage would be in BIG trouble. And I think before I always thought of spending time with God as one of the things you do to make you a good Christian. And while I know I knew in the back of my head that really it's to develop a relationship with God, I didn't live that way. So this study has been really good for me to really fall in love with God. Not just to serve, worship, obey, fear, respect, and appreciate--but to LOVE GOD! It's been awesome and I find myself looking forward to the time I get to spend in the study and the time I spend afterwards just "being" with God.

THOUGHT FOR TODAY

Do you love God? OR do you just obey and serve Him etc.? Take some time to fall in love with God again, or for the first time! Don't forget to Sound off and tell me about it!

Wednesday, September 04, 2002

Hey! How's it goin?? :)

BOOKS

The Presence is going well. I'm about half-way through it. It's interesting. Not the best book I've read, but still good :)

I have started my next non-fiction and that's Experiencing God. I've went part way through this workbook before, but petered out somewhere in the middle because my procrastination/lack of discipline kicked in and I just got out of it. This time I'm leading a small group, so that will help tremendously in keeping me on track :) It's great stuff, well worth the time and it's really awesome and I'm looking forward to making it all the way through. Hopefully I will also become more faithful with blogging and can share my thoughts with you on it :)

WHAT'S GOIN' ON?

New section :) Just some tidbits of what's going on in my life :) My oldest son who is soon to be 5 started preschool today! He went last year as well, but this is his first day this year :) Tomorrow my youngest son will start preschool for the very first time! They are both so excited about it and that's just terrific, so glad for them!

Soccer practice went better this week :) While people weren't overly friendly, they didn't try to avoid me either :) lol. And my daughter is improving! Which is great ;) She's having a great time and it's good to see her out there.

I'm trying (desperately) to get into some kind of routine. It's so not working, but I so need it or else I"m going to go crazy! My poor son (the youngest who is 3) ended up putting himself to bed tonite! It was so funny, I was helping my daughter with her homework, and my oldest son was watching and talking with us and Josh came home from helping out my brother and when we all went upstairs to read our bedtime story, there was my youngest already curled up in bed fast asleep! When I had hollered upstairs about 15 minutes before that he had said he was playing, so I didn't think anything about it! Poor Kid, he's just exhausted with all the running around we seem to be doing!!

THOUGHTS FOR TODAY

I think I'll leave you with some thoughts from my Experiencing God book--2 things stuck out at me tonite.

1. Our memory verse--John 15:5 "I am the vine; you are the branches. If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." Apart from HIM we can do nothing--absolutely nothing. Nothing new, but just struck me hard.

2. (quoting from the book) "When you come to the Lord Jesus to seek His will for your life, which of the following requests is most like what you ask? Check your response.
1. Lord, what do you want me to do? When do you want me to do it? How shall I do it? Where shall I do it? Who do you want me to involve along the way? And please tell me what the outcome will be.
2. Lord, just tell me what to do one step at a time, and I will do it."

OK, so I obviously chose number 2 because I'm so together--_NOT!! :) I chose one, and would probably add-_How long do you want me to do it? and How can I know for sure it's you? lol. I'm horrible about that! I don't want to just make this first little step and then wait--waiting is horrible..I HATE waiting :) lol. But it's such a necessary part.

Anyway, it's getting late and I better go. Let me know your thoughts!