Friday, May 30, 2003

Do you ever feel like you're being tossed around by everything that is going on around you? I do, and I notice it more because I seem to have a lot of dreams about tornados while I'm feeling that way. They range from knowing a tornado is coming and doing everything I can to protect myself and then either the tornado never comes, or it goes around or isn't that bad to not knowing the tornado is coming and being stuck in a horrible place and scared out of my mind and it destroying everything. Sometimes the presence of God is overwhelming and I know I'm being supernaturally protected. Other times the tornado just rips through and destroys everything.

I think a tornado to me, is very much like life. Life comes, and I'm really powerless to change it. I can protect myself, I can prepare for it, but I can't change it. I can cry out to God, and sometimes He changes it, or protects me, but other times He allows me to go through it. It doesn't always make sense, but then I'm not God and I can't see the whole picture like He does.