Tuesday, November 16, 2004


Yesterday I took my middle child to the doctor and then let him hang out with me all day instead of going back to school (I know, I'm an awful parent). We went to Wal-Mart to get groceries and as we were leaving we walked past the Salvation Army Bell Ringer. As we were making our way to our van, my son says to me, "Oh man that bell is so annoying, I wish he would quit ringing it." I kind of chuckled and then told him why the bell ringer was there. I explained to him that some people aren't able to come to Wal-Mart every week and buy a cart full of groceries to take home, that sometimes people don't have anything to eat and the bell ringers collect all the change to help out families in need. My son looked at me and said "Really?" and then I could see the little wheels turning in his mind. Then he said, "So instead of getting this soda and candy, I could have gave money to the bell ringer so someone else could eat?"

I was surprised at the level of understanding. Dumbfounded by the obvious conviction he just felt and how he knew that a soda and candy weren't worth having if someone else wasn't going to get anything to eat. I knew it was a God moment, one of those wonderful jewels that would be something that would stick in his mind for a long time.

I said to him that it is ok for us to have special treats. That God doesn't mind us getting fun things for ourselves or enjoying the money He's given us. But that He does expect us to share our money and our things with people who need it. Then he asks me, "Can we give some money?" and before I answered God spoke to my heart and said that we needed to pray and give Him a chance to speak to my son. So we sat down on the edge of the van and asked God how much money He would like us to give. When we said amen, my son told me how much God had asked him to give and we got into my purse and got the money and walked back up front and put the money in the pot.

On the walk back to the van I told my son that I was proud of him for doing what God asked him to do and he said, "I'm proud of myself!"

Thanks God for the reminder that my money is not mine, but just a loan from you to do the work you ask me to do. Thanks for loving my son and working in his heart.

Monday, September 27, 2004


I am my daughter's Girl Scout Leader and this weekend my Assistant Troop Leader & I took 5 of our scouts to Camp Na Wa Kwa in Poland, IN. We had a GREAT time! The weather was absolutely gorgeous. The girls were very good. And it was a lot of fun!

I think my favorite thing was Human Bowling. We had these scooters that the girls sat on and then we pushed them across the room into "pins" (large size cans--2 taped together). Oh my gosh, it was so much fun.

Then of course there were fun Girl Scout songs, campfire, hikes, s'mores, and meeting new friends!

It was great to take a couple of days to invest in my daughter and her friends and many girls that I might not ever see again, but hopefully helped feel important and special if even for a couple hours.

Wednesday, September 22, 2004


Ok, so we are into week 5 of school for the kids, week 3 of working at preschool, and day 6 of having a dog. So when do things get back to normal? Normal is not even an issue really with me, a routine would be nice.

My house was clean (at least very well picked up) on Monday night for Bible Study and, I kid you not, it is trashed today! There are papers piled up all over my desk and all around my office, the dishes are stacked and my "to do" list seems to get longer every second!

The end of the school year was busy, the summer was busy, and I kept saying that when school starts things will slow down, but it seems like I'm picking up speed!

So again I ask..when will things go back to normal? Normal? I laugh. There is no such thing.

Saturday, September 18, 2004


Nope, we're not building on to our home. We have a new addition to our family--a puppy! We have been talking about getting one for quite awhile and then our oldest son decided that a pet is what he would like for his birthday so we started a serious search. We found one in Paris, IL who is 3 months old, a Jack Russell Terrier/Beagle Mix. He's a VERY good dog. He's very close to being completely potty trained--as long as you let him out frequently and watch him after he eats. He's the right blend of active/cuddly. He likes to play and run, but he's not constantly chewing on the kids or jumping on them and he doesn't just sit there shivering..lol I think it's going to be a good match for us. At least I hope. OH and he likes cats, which is quite important considering our daughter has a cat..lol Now the cat isn't so crazy about him, but she'll come around.

Thursday, September 09, 2004


Here I am! I made it through my first day. Of course today was more like a trial run because we split the class in half and took each half for only 1 hour. We had 5 for the first hour and 2 for the second (I know, that's not half and half). One student has a really bad cold, so we won't get to meet her until next Tuesday.

Overall it went really well. The first hour we had 4 boys and 1 girl. The girl was a bit timid, and I couldn't blame her with all those boys! For the most part the kids listened and followed instructions. The second hour was awkward with only 2 kids. Time seemed to go really slow and it was really quiet.

I am still a bit nervous about the job. I like to know what's going on and how things are supposed to go before everything actually happens and unfortunately for me, my employers seem to be more of the fly-by-the-seat-of-your-pants type people. Which I can be when I'm comfortable, but since I'm not comfortable it's really aggravating. I made mention today to the other teacher that I work really well with explicit instructions and I would rather do things the way she wanted the first time instead of having to be told afterwards that I did something incorrectly.

Case in point.. Last week I asked what the dress code was. I was informed it was casual, but no jeans. Ok no problem. Today I find out that khaki shorts are not ok. What was I wearing today? Khaki shorts. Ugh. I didn't have to go home and change, but it was rather frustrating that it wasn't more clear last week to avoid this problem. So I pressed a bit and found out that dresses and skirts need to be past the knee (which makes sense since we'll be on the floor alot). Again, information that is needed when buying clothing for the new job!!!!!!!!!!

I'm trying not to tense up about the situation. I know it will work out ok, it's just that perfectionistic nature creeping out.

On a different note, we got back the IOWA Test Scores from last year for our middle son and he scored a 95% overall and in Vocabulary he scored a 99%! We were blown away! I am so proud of him!

Thursday, September 02, 2004


Ok, so we've been in school for a week now and I have yet to create a new routine for myself. This is going to be more difficult than I thought!

Oh and did I mention that I have added a couple things to my schedule so that I won't be so lonesome without the kids? Yeah, now I work 10 hours (from home--God is so cool) for The Crossover, I took a new job at the Sonshine Center (a preschool/daycare center) where I will be working 6 hours a week (an hour more than I thought), I'm still my daughter's Girl Scout Troop leader PLUS I added on being the Girl Scout Recruiter for our town (there are 3 of us on a team), also I am getting involved in a ladies' bible study on Friday mornings in the Ashmore area and they have chosen a daily devotional type book PLUS I have volunteered to lead a bible study out of my home once a week through my church which also happens to be a daily devotional type book.

I suddenly don't feel so lonesome--lol.

It's good, really it is. I have only cried once over my youngest going to Kindergarten, which is a grand improvement to when my oldest went--I cried every morning on the way home after dropping her off--for the whole school year.

Now I have to find balance. And no, Brian, I am not going back to school this year--but I do appreciate you encouraging me! I think my plate is full for now.

So more on the new job after my first day. I met the kids Tuesday night at the Open House, it will be interesting! Lots of nervous parents!

I appreciate your prayers!

Thursday, August 12, 2004


I can't believe how our justice system is weak on sex offenders. If you haven't heard, Ronnie Johnson, 53 year old male from rural Kansas, kidnapped, raped, and then tied a 13 year old girl to a tree stabbed her three times and left her for dead. The man was placed on probation in 1988 for criminal sexual assault with a victim under 18 and then his probation was revoked in 1992 for aggravated criminal sexual abuse with a victim under the age of 13! HELLO??????? What is he doing out? You can read the story here.

I also saw on WTHI Channel 10 news this morning that this man also victimized his step-daughters. The one who was in the interview said the abuse occurred as far back as kindergarten through age 14, happening at least once sometimes twice a day.

I am definitely for harsh penalties for sex offenders. These offenders are known to repeat the crime. Check out this site to read about a study done in 1994 about sex offenders. It said on average, the offenders only served 3½ years of their 8 year terms and compared to non-sex offenders released from State prisons, sex offenders are 4 times more likely to be rearrested for a sex crime.

What is the deal with our laws? Why aren't we doing a better job protecting our children and other innocent victims? 1 time can be attributed to a mistake, too much to drink, a problem, but when someone harms another person and pays their "debt to society" and turns around and does the SAME CRIME again--come on. It's time to put these guys away for good. And yes I know that means higher taxes for more prisons and guards and space. So be it. We gotta do something.

Ok, I'll step down. It just sickens me is all.

Friday, August 06, 2004


The Village, was VERY good! Wonderfully creepy! I love M. Night Shyalaman's stuff. The guy tells a great mystery! Definitely see it. (As far as teens go, I think this one might be ok, unless your teen struggles with scary stuff.)

I finished the book, The Last Juror by John Grisham. It was good, not great. But a pretty good story. That was the first book I've read of his. I like his stories that have been turned into movies--The Firm, The Pelican Brief, A Time to Kill etc. I thought it was kind of funny, I was reading the author's note at the end of the book and he states very clearly that he took poetic license in the time frame and actual events of desegregation in Mississippi, so please don't write him and tell him how he got it wrong. I thought that was so funny!

18 more days and school starts here! Crazy! This summer flew by!

Friday, July 30, 2004

Going out with my hubby tonight!  We are going to see The Village  (We love M. Night Shyamalan's stuff!) and then for supper.  Josh's 13 year old brother is going to babysit..so we'll see if we have a house left when we get home.  :)  Just teasing!  He's a good kid.

Thursday, July 29, 2004

There are a couple situations going on in our family that we could really use some prayer over.  I don't feel like I can really share the details at this point, but we definitely need some guidance. Thanks for your prayers!

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Whew, what a week, and what a weekend!  Seemed like I was swamped everyday from the time I got up until bedtime!
Bagelfest was, let's just say interesting.  I had some really odd things happen to me, that have never happened before. My good friend Danelle, reminded me that these are the people God wants to reach, regardless of whether we want to reach them or not. 
It was a good reminder.  Because all weekend I was amazed/shocked/and even angered by people's behavior and what I really wanted to do was say that I would never do this again.  It's not worth it.
How selfish of me.  God never says that about me.  It doesn't make people's behavior ok, but it does give me a bigger picture of what God is about.
So God, if you want us at Bagelfest next year, I will help put it together.  And thanks for the people who were really grateful.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

The Crossover (my church) is passing out popsicles and doing face painting for free at Bagelfest!  (Bagelfest is a festival put-on annually in Mattoon, IL.)  We've done it in the past and it has been a lot of fun.  This year I've been discouraged by the lack of interest (or what seemed to be) in participating.  This morning I was presently surprised when 4 people showed up to help me setup the booth and decorate it!  It was so nice to work together with some other people toward a common goal.  So thanks to Jim Donnell, Robin Gardner, Nikki Greer, & Jami McCONNAHA for coming out!  (Special thanks to Jordan Ridgley, my brother-in-law who came out and helped too!)


Thursday, July 15, 2004

Ok, so I didn't go back and finish up the dishes.  I decided to check out some blogs first.  And I'm glad it did, because God whammed me upside the head (as He often lovingly does :) )
I checked out this http://www.urbanonramps.blogspot.com blog that my friend Brian had on his blog and my "perspective" was definitely changed.  You'll have to go there and read the latest post to see what I mean, but I need to update my list...
Like, when your monitor on your computer goes out, you have an awesome friend who is willing to loan you another.
Like, when outlook express won't let you see your emails, you can be thankful that you use hotmail and can check your email anyway.
Like, when your children aren't getting along, it means they are in the house with you and healthy and ok.
Like, when you and your husband are just in a "blah" stage, it doesn't mean anything except that you're just both feeling "blah" and you'll get over it!
Like, when you have severe headaches because of weather changes, you know that it will eventually pass and there is nothing seriously wrong.
Like, when you have pop-up ads that drive you insane, it reminds you that you really shouldn't be surfing the web anyway, go play with your kids!
Like, when you let your dishes pile up and you have to wash them all by hand--be thankful that you have a house, with dishes, and had food to put on/in those dishes, and now you are healthy enough to wash those dishes!
Thanks for the perspective God!

Like, the monitor for your computer going out.
Like, Outlook Express not allowing you to view your emails.
Like, your children not getting along.
Like, you and your spouse, not fighting, but not really getting along either.

Like, having severe headaches because of the frequently changing weather.

Like, pop-up ads that take up your entire screen and you can do nothing to stop them. 
Like, allowing your dishes to pile up and then having to face cleaning them all--by hand.
So I'm venting.  Kill me.  This week has been filled with the "little things".  The little things which seem to set me off.  I don't know what my deal is, but these little things get under my skin and cause me to want to explode.  (maybe there really is some truth to that personality quiz..lol)
Anyway, I'll be fine.  Really I will.  Just had to get it off my chest.  Now I'll go finish up those blessed dishes!

Thursday, July 08, 2004

Fun Quizzes!

20 Questions to a Better Personality

Wackiness: 26/100
Rationality: 30/100
Constructiveness: 30/100
Leadership: 48/100

You are an SEDF--Sober Emotional Destructive Follower. This makes you an evil genius. You are extremely focused and difficult to distract from your tasks. With luck, you have learned to channel your energies into improving your intellect, rather than destroying the weak and unsuspecting.

Your friends may find you remote and a hard nut to crack. Few of your peers know you very well--even those you have known a long time--because you have expert control of the face you put forth to the world. You prefer to observe, calculate, discern and decide. Your decisions are final, and your desire to be right is impenetrable.

You are not to be messed with. You may explode.

20 Questions to being a better person

Your score as a human being is 35.55.

Good Lord. You have some severe deficits of people quality. Who do you hang out with? Who do you date? What is your deal? I hope at least your grooming is good.

There is hope for you, of course. Rededicate yourself to the greater good. Plant a tree. Volunteer at a soup kitchen. Anything, for the love of Pete.

Self-esteem is good, but without other-esteem it doesn't get you very far.

Jung Typology Test

I took this test with a Star Wars twist a month or so ago. I got a different result this time. Last time I was a ENFP. Go figure :)

Provider Guardians [ESFJs] take it upon themselves to arrange for the health and welfare of those in their care, but they are also the most sociable of all the Guardians, and thus are the great nurturers of established institutions such as schools, businesses, churches, social clubs, and civic groups. Wherever they go, Providers take up the role of social contributor, happily giving their time and energy to make sure that the needs of others are met, that traditions are supported and developed, and that social functions are a success.

Providers are very likely more than ten percent of the population, and this is very fortunate for the rest of us, because friendly social service is a key to their nature. Highly cooperative themselves, Providers are skilled in maintaining teamwork among their helpers, and are also tireless in their attention to the details of furnishing goods and services. They make excellent chairpersons in charge of social events. They are without peer as masters of ceremonies, able to approach others with ease and confidence, and seemingly aware of what everyone’s been doing. And they are outstanding hosts or hostesses, able to remember people’s names, usually after one introduction, and always concerned about the needs of their guests, wanting to insure that all are involved and provided for.

Providers are extremely sensitive to the feelings of others, which makes them perhaps the most sympathetic of all the types, but which also leaves them rather self-conscious, that is, highly sensitive to what others think of them. Because of this Providers can be crushed by personal criticism, and will work most effectively when given ample appreciation both for themselves personally and for the service they give to others. This is not to say that Providers are afraid to express their own emotional reactions. They are quick to like and dislike—and don’t mind saying so—tending to put on a pedestal whatever or whoever they admire, and to come down hard on those people and issues they don’t care for.

In their choice of careers, Providers may lean toward sales and service occupations. They have such pleasant, outgoing personalities that they are far and away the best sales reps, not only regularly winning sales contests, but earning seniority in any sales group within an organization. Observing ESFJs at work in a sales transaction reveals clearly how this type personalizes the sale. They are visibly—and honestly—concerned with their customer’s welfare, and thus the customer is not simply buying the product, but is buying personally from the Provider. This same characteristic causes them to be good in many people-to-people jobs, as teachers, clergy, coaches, social workers, office receptionists, and so on. Providers seldom become a source of irritation in the workplace; on the contrary, they are unflagging in their devotion to their company, and show such personal loyalty to their immediate superiors that they make invaluable personal secretaries.

Guess I have some work to do huh? lol :) Thanks to Brian for the links!

Tuesday, July 06, 2004


I don't like feeling helpless. I have done everything that I can think of over the years to learn how to deal with every situation that comes to me. I've learned how to lean on God to get me through the tough times and to give me the wisdom I need to make it through. But there are still times when God just allows me to suffer through, and not to be able to solve a problem or help in any way.

I'm there now. There are 3 situations that have occurred in the last week that have made me feel so helpless and confused as to what the next step should be. So I'm waiting, impatiently mind you :), and hurting.

I'm not saying this is a bad thing. I have complete faith that God will use this time for whatever He purposes. But it still hurts.

Tuesday, June 29, 2004


My husband and I enjoy playing poker (Texas Hold 'Em specifically). We got started by watching the World Poker Tour on the Travel channel and then got online into a couple of poker sites and have since really gotten involved in the strategy of it.

We've been playing for at least 3 or 4 months (I think more, but I'm not sure). And I have yet to win a tournament. I have gotten 2nd NUMEROUS times and have done really well just playing at a regular table, but I have NEVER beaten everyone in a tourney! And tonight--I DID! I was so excited! It's just for play money, but it was still fun!

To make it even better, the tide really turned when I got pocket deuces (translation for non-poker players: dealt a pair of 2s) while I was in the big blind (translation for non-poker players: kind of like a forced ante) and I raised. The other 2 players went all-in and I called and ended up with 10s and 2s, and they got nothing. One guy had more than I did, so he got some money back ($495), but wasn't able to recover!

Go me :)

All three of my children have poison ivy. The youngest just has like 4 little spots on his arm, but my middle son has it ALL OVER! My daughter has it pretty bad as well, but it seems to be containing itself.

So we all trooped to the doctor's office yesterday to make sure it was just poison ivy and to get some meds to help it clear up. We sat in the waiting room for 45 minutes. Then we sat in the little exam room for 15 minutes. And we spoke to the doctor for all of 5 minutes. I kid you not. I timed it, and 5 minutes is rounding up.

What is the deal with that? You call and make an appointment, you would think this would help. But no, it just ensures you will get seen that day. It drives me insane. I am not a patient person anyway and then when I have to sit and wait, it just gets me all riled up.

AND THEN, we had to go to Wal-mart to get the prescriptions filled. She said it would take 15 minutes. That's fine. So I go to a pay phone to call my hubby to let him know that I'll be able to pick him up from work, and we browse through the shoes and look at a few other things and 15 minutes later we walk over to the pharmacy to pick up our prescriptions and she says that it's not done yet, it'll be a few minutes.

Ok, so we stand there in the medicine aisle, because I really need to get going to pick up my hubby on time. The kids are being rowdy because they are tired of being still, so they're playing London Bridge and some kind of Kung-Fu fighting game. And the lady who told me it will be just a couple of minutes is yacking to the other lady in the back. She's not doing anything--neither of them are!

Talk about blood pressure going up about 15 points. OH man. 15 minutes later she finally calls me over and hands me the meds and THEN informs that they didn't have enough of the one medication and I'd have to come back the next day after 5pm to pick up the rest!

I'm not a happy camper.

Friday, June 25, 2004


My last quiet morning! Guess who complained that it was time to go yesterday? The youngest! Guess who complained that today was the last day? ALL THREE! Thanks God! The week was good for the kids and they had a good time. The week was good for me too! I really enjoyed my mornings to be able to get things done without constant interruptions. It's amazing how productive one can be!

Have a great weekend!

Tuesday, June 22, 2004


Got bored with the old template, but man was it a pain to get everything changed to a new one! Won't do that for awhile :) Enjoy the new look!

The kids are going to VBS at the First Baptist Church in Casey this week. So it's giving me a little taste of what this fall might be like with all 3 of them in school! Yesterday wasn't so bad because Josh took a vacation day (it was his birthday!), so we ate breakfast together and watched a movie on TV. Today hasn't been too bad, I've caught up on my blog reading and am actually updating mine! I still have an hour to go though..lol.

The hardest part is my youngest didn't want to go back to VBS. Yesterday he told me (in front of his teacher!) that it was boring and he wasn't coming back. After I got him home I figured out that a couple of his friends didn't really include him in their playtime and that he missed me. Poor guy. The mom in me was a tad bit excited that I was missed, and mad at the little boys for not including my son. And as much as I would have liked to keep him home and play with him this morning, I decided my best bet was to encourage him to give it another try.

He went, but only after the other kids told me that they passed an offering plate yesterday and wanted to know if they could bring some money to give and while I was passing out quarters, my youngest wanted a quarter too and I said that it was for VBS and since he wasn't going he didn't need the quarter to which he replied, "I am going." So hopefully the quarter got put in the offering and not pocketed by my child as a bribe..lol :)

Thursday, May 13, 2004

WHOA--Blogger Updated!

I guess I should get on here a bit more often and I would have known Blogger updated--Oh Well!


I did this Star Trek Personality test because I'm a copycat and one of my best friends did it, so I did too :) here are my results:

Myers-Briggs would say that you are an ENFP (Extrovert, Intuitive, Feeler, Perceiver). In Star Trek language, you share a basic personality configuration with James Kirk and Julian Bashir.

People like you are generally great problem-solvers. You're highly innovative, creative and unique. You're optimistic by nature, which may make others believe you're naive, but actually you're full of energy, very clever, and determined not to be stopped. You're outgoing, curious, and extremely playful. Others are sometimes taken aback by your enthusiasm, but it keeps you going after others have dropped.

You're deeply caring, sensitive and gentle, which, combined with your need to solve problems, may make you a little too eager to give others advice. You also process information very quickly, which may make others believe you're not listening to them. Before you share your feelings, you have to have time to process them.

You're adaptive and resourceful, but sometimes highly disorganized. You dream of having the perfect assistant. You respond best to people who encourage your unique viewpoints and insights, help you maintain harmony, and want to play and explore with you. You don't respond well when you're overwhelmed with details or when you're in a rigid situation.

Your primary goal in life is freedom to see possibilities, make connections, and be with a variety of people. Your reward is having spontaneous adventures.

Good careers for your type include being an advertising account executive, starship captain, career counselor, developer of educational software, actor, graphics designer, corporate team trainer, psychologist, inventor, medical pioneer, and child welfare counselor.

I was kind of surprised, I thought it was pretty accurate!

You can take the test here!


I have never been so ill in my life! I got started feeling funky on Monday and by late that night I had the flu SO BAD! It was awful. I asked Josh to stay home on Tuesday because I could barely move! I finally feel at about 80% today. Thank you God!


Last Thursday, May 6 was one of the best days of my life! All three of my kids made decisions to follow God! I was thrilled to be able to discuss and pray with each of them! Talk about exciting! My children are 8, 6, & 5 and my 8 year old daughter has been working up to this decision for a long time. She's been asking a lot of questions, worried that she doesn't understand, and been pretty emotional during some "special" times at church (Christmas Eve services, baptisms etc). So I was pretty excited when we started discussing what being a Christian meant that morning in the bathroom while I was fixing her hair! By the time we were done she told me she thought she was ready and and so I asked her a few questions and then I prayed and she prayed! Awesome! After school I encouraged her to share her experience with her brothers, but she was a little nervous. But somehow the conversation wound its way around to being a Christian and my 5 year old piped up and said, "I'm not a Christian." To which my six year old said, "Yes you are." Which of course turned into an "am not/yes you are" argument and my 8 year old said "No he's not" Which lead into another discussion of what a Christian is, and by the end both boys were adamant that they wanted to become one. My 5 year old blessed my socks off by eagerly praying first and saying something to the effect of "Jesus, sorry I do bad stuff. I need you to help not to. I love you. Thanks. Amen" Talk about an emotional day! THANKS GOD!


One of my best friends who has been my best friend since we were like 3 is having a BABY! She's been trying to get pregnant for over a year and has been very discouraged. Her one dream for as long as I've known her was to get married and have a passle of kids and now God has blessed her with her first one! She's due in December! THANKS AGAIN GOD!


I think that catches you up with the most important stuff occurring in the last few weeks!

Tuesday, April 13, 2004


Yes, I'm still alive! It's amazing huh? Sorry about the long hiatus (Is that how you spell that?) Life gets stuck on fast forward sometimes in my life.

So to catch you up..


I have no voice. I'm not speaking metaphorically, I'm speaking literally. I literally am speechless and it totally stinks! My throat was scratchy on Sunday and after leading worship for XO Kids (crossover kids..our "kid's church") and then helping out with the Easter Egg Hunt after church, well my voice started sounding kind of grovelly (is that a word?).

Anyway, I woke up Monday morning and it was GONE! Ugh. From what I've read on the net, it could possibly be 2 weeks before it comes back. Great! OH well..so here I am!


So what have I been doing with my time since I haven't been blogging? Tae Bo! I need to shed some pounds and get some energy and so I've been exercising since like January, which is pretty huge for me who is not a disciplined person. So instead of reading blogs and writing mine, I have been taking that time to exercise. But I have yet to find a spot of time to get back in here regularly :( Bear with me!


So far the All-Stars have been playing pretty well. Most people are making excellent choices as to who is getting the ax! Boston Rob better watch out, because there couldn't be a larger target! It's been very entertaining the last couple of weeks and I am excited to see what happens next!


I have been reading, I am now on the 4th in the Chronicles of Narnia Series....Prince Caspian. They haven't just been fabulous, but they are interesting. I've read a couple of other novels in there as well, but none of them have really been "wow"!


I am on the move baby--cable modem! HELL-O! What a difference some speed makes when you go surfing! No more waiting for 5 minutes while your page loads or waiting 30 minutes to an hour for those important updates. Only looking at one page at a time? No more, with cable modem I can look at several webpages all at the same time without frustrating delays and constant lock-ups! I should be a saleswoman for the company, because I am in love :)


I hope that you all have had a good holiday and I can't wait for the warm weather! I'm not really a summer person, but I absolutely love 65-70 degree weather and I am tired of the cloudy days and am looking forward to some sunshine! Thanks for listening!

Wednesday, March 03, 2004


I just finished She's Undone by Wally Lamb. It definitely held my interest and he did a great job of weaving a story. But man the book was depressing! For the last couple of days I've been in a very "blah" mood and I really think it's this book. This woman is SO unhappy and so many terrible things happen in her life. It's really exhausting. Can't say whether I liked the book or not.

Next I'm going to read The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe. I heard on the radio today that they are making a movie of this book. Interesting :)

Survivor All Stars!

Ding Dong Hatch is gone! Whoo Hoo! Way to go Colby! Of course I'm not sure that this will help Colby in the long run, but at least we don't have to worry about Hatch winning. He underestimated people! Now I hope Colby doesn't make the same mistake because I think Jerri is out to get him!

What was up with Hatch's behavior? I mean it's one thing to make an off-color remark..but then to continue..ugh! I told Josh that I bet a lawsuit is going to happen over that and Sue will win too.

Thursday, February 26, 2004

I think I like this once a week blogging marathon thing..lol Sorry you all for not writing more regularly. My life is stuck in fast forward!

Friday Five! (Or Thursday Five if you're late like me!)

When was the last time you...

1. ...went to the doctor?
Thursday, February 12

2. ...went to the dentist?
somewhere between 1986-1989 (I had a horrible experience and have yet to conquer my fear to return--I'm a wimp)

3. ...filled your gas tank?I filled it on Sunday (Feb. 22) when we got home from visiting Josh's parents

4. ...got enough sleep?
Ugh..probably about 3 weeks. I have not been sleeping well

5. ...backed up your computer?
Me personally? Umm..I don't think I've ever done it. Ouch. I think Josh might have done it before? My wonderful friend, Brian, has on a couple of occasions been able to retrieve numerous files when my computer locked up :)

Survivor All Stars!

Rob C bit the dust. And I personally think it was a very wise move of Boston Rob. Not that I'm happy Rob C is gone, I liked him and all, but he definitely was a very real threat to Boston Rob and definitely cannot be trusted. It will be interesting to see what happens this week.

BY the way, I saw a preview of tomorrow night's show and they said something to the effect of "the losing team of the immunity challenge will be dissolved" Hmm. They could totally get rid of a team or they could take that team and divide it up on the other teams.?. So I guess I'll have to wait and see.

Oh and an update on Jenna M that came from Anna:
" just read an interview by Jenna M - she explained that her mother had been battling cancer for like, 8 or 9 years, that it had just become a part of life for her and her family. I wish I could remember where I read it from.. but anyway, since I can't remember the exact phrasing, basically, she was living her life and not sitting around for a whole decade waiting on her mom to die. I'm glad she was able to be there with her at the end."
Thanks for filling me in!


I started The Magician's Nephew by C.S. Lewis over the weekend. My brother-in-law got the series for Christmas and let me borrow the first one. It's ok. I'm not a big fantasy fan, but was curious. It's not too bad. Anna recommended "She's Undone" by Wally Lamb, which I picked up at the library this afternoon!

My Weekend

We went to Josh's parents for the weekend, which is in Alton, IL (about an hour away from St. Louis). It is always fun to go visit and relax. They are such laidback people and it is nice to just hang out and share life with them. This weekend they got us tickets to a hogroast dinner and a concert with a band (country-yee rah)that is pretty popular in the area. We agreed to go so we could spend some time with them, not because we enjoy that type of thing really.

Anyway, so we went and as I sat there I came up with a 4 step plan for our Easter service at The Crossover. We've been struggling with how to get new people (specifically unchurched) to attend our services. This night gave me lots of great ideas! Here's the plan:

1. Get a fiddler! While in the restroom I heard several people talk about how awesome the fiddler was and that you can't beat a band with a great fiddler. (By the way, the fiddler was really good--and I'm not a big fiddler fan!)

2. Bring on the Jell-O shots! I'm telling you this is a definite moneymaker! We can pull in people PLUS increase our offering. Can't beat that! These things went like hotcakes!

3. Add a really good dancer! They had this young kid that was a pretty good country dancer and he had the crowd up and clapping and laughing and having a great time.

4. And last but not least, end the service with a rousing rendition of "I Got Friends in Low Places" or some other song where everyone can sing along. After the jell-O shots, everyone seemed a lot freer to dance and sing loud.

Needless to say, I am a sheltered person who is unaccustomed to bar behavior. It was fascinating to watch. I just don't get it and I can't say that I'm sad that I don't get it. It would be interesting to learn these people's stories. I'm becoming more and more fascinated with people's stories. I think that's why (in general) people are so intrigued by reality TV. It's learning people's stories!

Wednesday, February 18, 2004

Outsmarting Dial-up

In the hopes of not losing everything I type, I'm am going to take Anna's advice and I typed this up as an email and copied and pasted it. Thanks for the heads up Anna!

Survivor All-Stars

BRIAN--if you haven't watched the one from Feb. 12 yet, skip this section!

OH my gosh! Jenna M. (previous winner of Survivor Amazon) walks! Ok, now for the full story. Jenna's mother is a cancer survivor, but from the way they made it sound, she was in a cancer center, so she must have gotten worse. ANYWAY...Jenna went ahead and came to the game anyway. Well she felt terrible almost immediately for doing so and hesitated on whether she should stay. Finally she voiced her concerns to her tribe and said that she really thought she needed to leave because if anything happened to her mom and she was out here playing a game she would never forgive herself (well-duh!). So anyway, she tells Jeff at the next immunity challenge that she wants to go home and they take her off by boat and at the end of the show there is a little written update thingy that says 8 days after Jenna got home her mother passed away! How awful! I'm so glad she did go. But there is part of me that can't believe she came in the first place, but I've done some pretty stupid stuff, so who am I to talk?

The show really wasn't that interesting last week, beyond Richard's (the gay guy who won the first Survivor) shark wrestling match that ended up with a shark bite for Richard and a Richard bite and becoming dinner for the shark! It was hilarious, Colby (from Survivor Outback) says, "Can you call a gay guy a stud? Richard, you're a stud." lol. That was pretty funny.

All in all, Rupert is doing poorly..he made a mess of the reward challenge in my opinion, Ethan's future looks much brighter. Richard is by far the best player and has a great chance of winning if he can dodge Tribal Council for awhile until he gets some friends. He is so smart about people, but he himself is such a jerk (or appears to be..like I really know him!)! Colby is doing well with Richard on his team, it gives him a chance to not stand out. The girls, with the exception of Kathy & Jerri, aren't doing so well in my opinion. Amber has a chance if she can keep her wits about her and keep her hormones under control.

Well anyway, enough of that until after the next episode!

Friday Five!

1. Are you superstitious?
Nope. But I do feel a bit funny about walking under a ladder?? Go figure. And I didn't let my hubby see me until I walked down the aisle at our wedding.

2. What extremes have you heard of someone going to in the name of superstition?I haven't.

3. Believer or not, what's your favorite superstition?I love the tradition of the groom not seeing the bride on their wedding day until she walks down the aisle. I just think it is so romantic.

4. Do you believe in luck? If yes, do you have a lucky number/article of clothing/ritual?Luck? I guess not, I mean I don't have anything special that I hang onto.

5. Do you believe in astrology? Why or why not? I don't. Why? The honest answer is because I was brought up not to. That it was of the devil and evil etc. I have never looked into it to actually see what I believe. I don't think God set things up so that we could tell the future by the stars etc and that as the moons and stuff change that that affects us in our lives. But do I know for sure? Of course not, but He's never led me to look into all of that so I don't think that is how He set it up.


Have you ever tie-dyed anything? Oh my gosh, last night my girl scout troop tie-dyed t-shirts and it was SO MUCH FUN! They look so cool and everyone's looks different even though we used the same colors and similar ways of banding the shirts. I highly recommend this as project to do with your kids on a rainy day. It is relatively cheap. I bought 2 kits from Wal-Mart for $9.97 a piece and we did 11 girl shirts and 1 adult shirt and I still have plenty of dye leftover.

Pajama Day!

The kids and I had Pajama Day on Monday since there was no school and it was so much fun. We had breakfast and lounged around and then did some puzzles and read some books. After lunch Jumanji was on, so we watched the rest of that and then the kids played Nintendo and I read and book. It was a wonderful LAZY day!


I finished up The Act of Marriage, which was pretty good but outdated..I think the copyright is 1970 something. I also finished my Mary Higgins Clark book which was ok. I like some of her stuff, but she is a bit descriptive and that gets on my nerves. I'm not sure what I'm gonna read next. I'm looking at Waking the Dead by John Eldredge as my non-fiction and maybe The Magician's Nephew by C.S. Lewis as my fiction. But haven't decided yet.. Suggestions are welcome!

Saturday, February 14, 2004

I HATE dial-up!

Have I mentioned lately that I HATE DIAL-UP! It is SO frustrating! I wrote out this big long post and then I went to post and publish and the stupid thing wouldn't work because my dial-up had disconnected (FOR WHAT REASON- I DO NOT KNOW!) and so I lost my whole post. MAN that's irritating.

SO this is it for now, because I'm too frustrated to retype everything.

Wednesday, February 11, 2004

My Apologies!

Life has definitely sped up the last couple of weeks! So I haven't been able to make time to get here and I haven't been able to make time to participate in Blogger Idol either :( Unfortunately I don't see how I can possibly continue that anyway..it takes SO MUCH time! I can't believe how long it takes to read all the blogs etc. It's an awesome idea though!

Survivor All-Stars

I have made time to watch my most favorite TV show though! This season is off to a good start :) The most difficult thing this time around is that the survivors were not given matches or anything else to help them start a fire. The first tribe to go to tribal council was not allowed to take fire back either! The main problem with the lack of fire is then there is also NO drinkable WATER! Yikes! Anyway at the first tribal council Tina (winner of Survivor Outback) was voted off and in the second tribal council Rudy was voted off. The same tribe went to both tribal councils--ouch for Saboga! SO we'll see what comes next this Thursday!

Friday Five!

Just playing a little catch up today! Thanks for reading :)

1. What's the most daring thing you've ever done?
Daring thing? Hmm.. I am not daring. I once drove around a curve at 55mph when it said to take it at 25mph and the people with me about had a coronary, which was funny, but that really isn't daring, it's just stupid. (I was 16 at the time)

2. What one thing would you like to try that your mother/friend/significant other would never approve of?
Mother? Skydiving..she'd have a fit!

3. On a scale of 1-10, what's your risk factor? (1=never take risks, 10=it's a lifestyle)
I would say probably a 4. I'm not a risk taker. And I tend to take less risks the older I get. If I'm in the right mood, I might be really silly, but I usually don't do anything considered "risky".

4. What's the best thing that's ever happened to you as a result of being bold/risky?
I got to travel to Brazil South America when I was 17 to visit missionaries our church supported. I went all by myself and I had never even been on an airplane before that visit! Of course this had more to do with God than me being risky, but it still was pretty bold/risky.

5. ... and what's the worst?
I'm not sure...because most things that have seemed "bad" because of my boldness have actually been valuable learning experiences that ended up being very good for me! I'm sure there is something, but it's not coming to mind immediately.

Friday, January 30, 2004

Friday Five!

It's that time again... :)

You have just won one million dollars:

1. Who do you call first?
It depends. If it happens during the day and Josh is at work, then I call him. If he's here with me...I'm not sure.

2. What is the first thing you buy for yourself?
I actually think this is a hard question. What I would really want is to pay off my home and then sell it and build a new house and decorate it how I would like. But that's not just for me. My other big wish list item right now is a new bed..but that's not just for me either :) So probably new clothes?

3. What is the first thing you buy for someone else?
Supper! I'd probably take my friends out to celebrate!

4. Do you give any away? If yes, to whom?
Yes, first to my church, and then after that I'd have to do a lot of thinking and praying.

5. Do you invest any? If so, how?
Yes. And I have no idea, I would definitely need to find some people who could help me out!

What about you? Leave your answers in the comments, or put it on your blog and leave your link!

Thursday, January 29, 2004

Reading & Watching

Of course my two fave things to do are reading and watching movies! I just finished off the O'Malley Series by Dee Henderson and am getting ready to read, "If I Gained the Whole World" by Linda Nichols. She also wrote the book "Not a Sparrow Falls", which was probably one of the best fiction novels I've read in a while.

As for movies, the other night Josh & I watched "Johnny English" with Rowan Atkinson (sorry if I messed up the spelling), or you may know him as Mr. Bean. Well we love Mr. Bean and find him totally hilarious and so we thought we'd watch this movie. Now it was funny in some parts. But you can only play the fumbling idiot spy for so long before it gets kind of old, and so this movie was kind of a drag overall. Oh well!
TOP PICKS for Blogger Idol Week 2

Drum roll, please.. :)

The following are all entries that stood out to me, in no particular order:

Anna --she and I must think on the same lines sometimes. I just totally understand where she's coming from!
needsomecoffee --freedom is found in security. Really liked this post.
Pressed --wonderful essay about free will vs. choice. Will make you think. Thanks for pressing us to know what we believe!
Jaded Angel -- very humorous. Some people who take the freedom of dress "too far" in her opinion.

And my most favorite post probably for this week is:
Frac -- I'm a sucker for fiction! Great job..loved it!

Be sure to check these out!

Monday, January 26, 2004

Blogger Idol Week 2: Freedom


The darkness was suffocating as I lay in bed, shared with Josh, the only person who mattered in my life. The weight of my mistakes felt like a physical hold on me. I tried to stifle my tears as I wept uncontrollably. How different my life had become. How far from who I thought I was going to be, had I become. Josh shifted his weight and snuggled closer. He did love me. He did care, but even that wasn't enough to lift the sadness that I felt. Sensing I was awake, he leaned in for a kiss and felt the dampness on my cheeks.

"What's wrong?" he asked.
"Nothing, just a bad dream." I replied. He pulled me closer.
"What kind of dream?" he pried.
"The kind best forgotton." I said and turned to face him, snuggling close for warmth and assurance.
"You're unhappy." Josh stated. With the way he said it, I knew I had to explain. For he was not the source of my unhappiness and I couldn't bear the thought of him thinking he was.
"Yes, I am. If I died tonight, I know I wouldn't be with God when I woke. But I don't know where to go from here either." The emotions began to flow as I once again began to sob uncontrollably.
"I always thought that if you would just become more like me, we could be together and we would both be happy. But now that you have, your joy is gone and I can't stand to see you so unhappy." He pulled me closer and wept as well.

2 Months Later...

"You're pregnant." The doctor gave me a half smile, as if he wasn't for sure whether the news would be a happy or sad event. I managed a lopsided smile back and he continued, "This is a surprise." He stated it, sensing my fear.

"More like a heart attack." I laughed as I responded.
"Will your parents be a good support system?" he asked, genuninely concerned.
"Probably not, but my boyfriend will be." I replied trying to sound more confident than I felt.
"There are other options." he said.
"No, there aren't. Not for me." He nodded and said he would get me a referral for a doctor and a prescription for prenatal vitamins until I could schedule an appointment. I thanked him, took my papers and made my way to the waiting room and paid my bill. I made it to my car before I completely fell apart.

Pregnant! I was 18 and pregnant, unmarried. Oh God! How could I have gone so far! Once again I felt so trapped, surrounded by darkness even though it was daylight outside.

I picked Josh up from work and I didn't even have to say anything. He just reached over and held me for a long time. When we parted he looked in my eyes and said, "I love you. We will make this work...together. Marry me."

I looked at him and wanted so much to say yes and have the "happily ever after", but I couldn't ask that of him. To give up his life for me and a baby. Sensing my doubt, he took my hand, "Don't even think of saying no. I'm not walking away."

It was settled. I would marry him. The next few weeks were a blur as we made definitive plans before we told our parents. We knew that if we already had plans in place, it would help our parents to see us not only as a couple but as logical thinkers. We found a trailer and decided on a simple ceremony, no big flashy wedding, just a simple dress and him in his suit and tie. Now all that was left was to tell the family the news.

He dropped me off at home before he drove home for the night. I hoped it was too late for my mom to be up, but she was in the living room.

"I got this in the mail today." It was an envelope addressed to me from Department of Family Services, already opened.
"You opened my mail?" I blurted.
"You want to explain?" she asked, hurt evident on her face.
"I'm pregnant. Josh and I are getting married. We have a trailer in town....I'm sorry." I finished lamely.
"When were you going to tell me?" she shouted. We were both crying now.
"I don't know, things have just happened so fast."
"I'm not taking care of that child."
"I didn't expect you to."
"How could you?"
"I'm sorry." Silence..unending silence it seemed. Finally mom spoke, softer this time,
"You don't have to marry him you know?"
"I want to. He's a good man." More silence. Then mom stood up and walked out of the room. I have never felt so alone.

1 Month Later

Telling his parents didn't go much better. Again the reassurance that "they" weren't going to raise that child, and how could we have been so stupid. But wedding plans were made, and as time had passed, both parents wanted the marriage at least to have a proper start with a wedding and had offered to help in various ways. It would still be small, but at least memorable and the family would attend.

Now it was time to get everything out in the open. Tomorrow, Josh and I would stand before our church and let them know what was going on. During the last few months Josh had learned that there was a God who loved him and forgave him and wanted to be the Rock for him to lean on during this time. Josh had given his life to that Rock. Hope surged. It might work. Oh God, please let it work. I am so sorry. How many times had I said that? A gazillion. Was it enough? Was the sorry for going against what He wanted enough? I didn't know.

"God, please, somehow show me it is enough. I have nothing left to give." I prayed as I tried to rest. The baby inside of me moved. How I had grown to love this little one. How confusing it was to love something that came about as a mistake. As sin.
"Oh God, help me to know how to feel." Sleep came, many hours later.

The Next Morning

The service seemed to last an eternity. Song after song, words and more words. I couldn't concentrate on any of them. Then at last, the last prayer and the pastor moved forward once again. This was it. I heard him say something about forgiveness, something about restoring those with a repentant heart and the next thing I new Josh and I were moving toward the stage. Somehow, I managed to climb the steps. Then I heard Josh talking, crying, and talking and then somehow I managed to begin talking and weeping. Looking into the faces of people who had loved me since I was a child. And when I looked, they didn't have angry faces, but many were weeping as well. Finally, Pastor Scott took over and prayed for us and then told the congregation that they could do whatever God had called them to do. As I stood to the side, trying to control my weeping, I saw a line begin to form heading toward the front. Toward me and Josh. Person after person clung to me and looked me in the eye and said "I forgive you."

Then, Donna came to me. She hugged me close and then looked in my face with tears streaming down her face and she said, "I've always told Miranda to look up to you. That you were a good model of a girl who's heart was for God." I dipped my head as I worried as to what would come next. This was a woman who had taken time out for me, prayed with me. Someone who I had truly disappointed. Someone who she had told her daughter to look up to, and I had let her down. Oh God forgive me!

She struggled with her emotions and finally caught my gaze and said, " And I still will."

The darkness lifted. And I was standing in the light once again. It was enough.

That was the day I learned what freedom was about. Freedom from the bondage of sin. True freedom can only come from God. When I needed tangible freedom from my sin, God gave it to me in the form of a woman who could have so easily been angry with me, but instead gave me the sweet taste of forgiveness and freedom. He's still there today offering me freedom in Him. Freedom from the enslavement of my own desires. And He does for you too.

This story is based on a true story. It's my story. It's been awhile, so exact wording and the timeline might be a bit off, but the heart of the story is true. My hope by repeating the story is that someone else may find freedom as well.

Friday, January 23, 2004

Movie Review: Anger Management

I should preface this by saying I'm not much of an Adam Sandler OR Jack Nicholson fan. I did enjoy Mr. Deeds & The Wedding Singer of Adam Sandler, so I thought I would give this one a try.

And it was funny. There were several scenes that I laughed out loud and thought were very clever. But unfortunately Mr. Sandler took a lot of the jokes too far (as he often does) and instead of being funny, they were crass and disgusting.

There were two things that bothered me a lot. One was a scene where two girls kiss and that just grossed me out. And the other was when Dave (Sandler) talked about molesting a mentally disabled person. Both were done for laughs, but I didn't laugh at either one. It kind of made me ill that people thought these things would be funny. So those things kind of ruined most of the movie for me.

I did like that the movie pointed out that people who don't deal with their anger have just as much of an anger problem as those of us who explode. (I'm an exploder...a closet exploder..just those close to me have seen me explode, and the few people in traffic who have witnessed my angry face and pointing from inside the car..lol) I thought that the idea of facing the things that have made you what you are today was also a good idea. Now I don't agree with how the confrontation occurred, but I think it can be very good to go back and tell the person that you are angry with that you are angry and you were hurt. Most of the time the person probably doesn't care, but at least you get it out there and can go on. At least in my personal experience it has been the best course of action.

Anyway, back to the movie...Jack Nicholson is just too strange for me. I'm not sure I can think of any movie that I've seen that I've liked him in. He plays a better bad guy than a good guy for sure.

Then of course there are the kooky music numbers that have become classic Adam Sandler. And several cameos that were fun to watch for. Rob Schneider did not appear though :( But Mayor Rudy Guilani (sp?) did shout "YOU CAN DO IT!", which was pretty funny. The guy who played the butler in Mr. Deeds was in this one too as Chuck, Dave's anger ally. Marisa Tomei, Dave's girlfriend, did a good job..I always like her.

So overall my opinion is to leave it on the shelf because it isn't worth wading through the crap to see the funny stuff.

If you've seen it, I would love to hear your opinion!
Friday Five!

At this moment, what is your favorite...

1. ...song?
Ugh, at this moment...probably Holy by Nicole Nordeman (sorry if I spelled it incorrectly!)

2. ...food?
without a doubt... spaghetti !

3. ...tv show?
Is there really anything else on TV? SURVIVOR BABY!

4. ...scent?
my husband...I know that sounds weird, but I don't know how to explain it.

5. ...quote?
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord. Isaiah 55:8 (NIV)

Thursday, January 22, 2004

Blogger Idol Top Picks

Oh my goodness, that took forever. I have now read through MOST of the posts. I have glanced at ALL of them. I don't know how I'm going to do this week after week. I just don't have the TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! But here are a few of my faves (in no particular order)

Deneice --she loved Strawberry Shortcake too and for that, she gets on my list :)
Loobylu -- absolutely great graphics and a way cool web design.
Pressed--for his honesty.
Christop--his parents really wanted him to become an artist I think :)
Heather--she took me on a quick trip down memory lane, very fluid post.
Anna--I can so identify with the mom who had no concept as to fashion!
Luke --interesting tribute to the songs of the 80s!

And that's my list.

(side note: I figured out how to put the links to the names all by myself..GO Me!)

Wednesday, January 21, 2004


It seems that my comments haven't been working properly lately :( What a bummer. They are fixed now and I apologize to my faithful reader, Brian, who probably thought he was being ignored while I thought that he found me rather boring and had nothing to say! lol! Confusion how entertaining! I did have one other person leave a comment..Beth Sargent! I had made a comment on her blog awhile back and she checked me out and asked me a question and since I've never replied back she probably moved on :( I will email her so I don't seem like a complete snob, just a little ignorant when it comes to the technical aspects! Thanks for your comments!

Just For Fun

These are the answers to a test I took that I found on Brian's Blog!

1. The person who you are walking with is the most important person in your life.

You were walking with: Josh


2. The size of the animal is representative of you perception of the size of your problems.

Animal you saw: deer

That is very interesting..

3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of how you deal with your problems (passive/aggressive).

Your interaction: none

lol..if anyone knows me, they know this is NOT true :)

4. The size of your dream house is representative of the size of your ambition to resolve your problems.

Size of your dream house: It's massive..the biggest house I've ever seen.

LOL..too funny :)

5. The absence fence is indicative of an open personality: People are welcome at all times. The presence of a fence indicates a closed personality: You'd prefer people not to drop by unannounced.

You have a fence: no

Very accurate :)

6. If your answer did not include food, people, or flowers, then you are generally unhappy.

In the dining area you saw: It's a dark wood with high back chairs with no cushions. There are candles and a vase of wildflowers for a centerpiece. The room is very lighted. Lots of windows letting in natural light with greenery all around.


7. The durability of the material with which the cup is made of is representative of the perceived durability of your relationship with the person named in number 1. For example, Styrofoam, plastic, and paper are all disposable, metal and plastic are durable.

The cup was made of: foam

Come on, how often do you see a metal cup outside?

8. Your disposition of the cup is representative of your attitude towards the person in number 1.

What you did with the cup: pick it up to put in the trash

I don't think so..

9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your sexual desire.

Body of water: an ocean

Oh my gosh..face is red!

10. How wet you get in crossing the water is indicative of the relative importance of your sex life.

To cross the water you: I won't

lol..poor Josh :)

Monday, January 19, 2004

Blogger Idol


Well let's see, the first week of Blogger Idol, and the topic is the 80s! The 80s? Come on people. At the end of the 80s I was a whopping 12 years old! lol Hmm... Things I remember from the 80s...

Strawberry Shortcake (she rocked..and she's coming back!)
My dad passing away (not a happy memory..but it happened in 84)
My first year at Camp Maranatha (85)
My first trip to Six Flags (86)
Meeting my future husband (at Camp! --85)
Rainbow Brite
Garbage Pail Kids (who in the world would have ever thought they would have taken off?)
Learning to read

Hmm, that's not alot :( Thanks to the show on VH1 entitled "I Love the 80s" I am able to enjoy a glimpse back in time, but beyond that I'm afraid I have very little to say!

So nothing ingenious for this round, I believe I've got my work cut out for me :)! I think I'll go take a look at what everyone else had to say!

Friday, January 16, 2004

Friday Five

1. What does it say in the signature line of your emails?
I don't have a signature that I use everytime, but if it's an email for The Crossover (a formal one anyway) I use:

Keeping you informed,
Shawna Ridgley
Administrative Assistant for The Crossover

The sad part? I had to look it up because I wasn't for sure what it said..lol

2. Did you have a senior quote in your high school yearbook? What was it? If you haven't graduated yet, what would you like your quote to be?

No, I didn't have a senior quote. But I was voted "Most Dramatic" and "Most Likely to Travel the World"

3. If you had vanity plates on your car, what would they read? If you already have them, what do they say?

JSRJQ 5 is what I would like to have and each letter is the beginning letter to each person in my family!

4. Have you received any gifts with messages engraved upon them? What did the inscription say?

I got a bracelet from my mom when I was little and it has my name, Shawna, on it. I also got a cool pin that has been twisted in to my name in cursive and has my birthstone on it. It's pretty cool too.

5. What would you like your epitaph to be?

lol..I have no idea, but I would like it to be funny. I am so not reverent about the dead and I don't know if that's good or bad. But people are dead, they're gone, if you wanted to say something nice to them, you should have said it while they were alive. I guess if I used the epitaph as my last words to the world, I might say "May the bird of life that flies over your head always be constipated." lol..Ok so maybe not, but I don't know what I would put.
Blogger Idol

I signed up for Blogger Idol, which is kind of a "contest" (I use that word very loosely) for bloggers. A guy named Darren will put a theme on his blog for all of us to write about on our blogs and we can check out what each other have said and then I think we can also post on whose ideas we liked best or something like that. Anyway, it's not really a contest so to speak as a chance to share ideas and generate attention to your blog. My hope is that it will get me to have something interesting to blog about! lol

Tuesday, January 13, 2004


I have been reading a lot lately. I finished "Wild At Heart" back before Christmas I think.
Excellent book! I highly recommend it to all men and to women who are willing to take an honest look at a man's journey to become a man and to be open to how we, as women, have at times taken away men's manhood. Great book. I believe it has definitely made me a better wife and mother!

I'm also reading back through the O'Malley Series by Dee Henderson. They are fairly light reading, in a way, but she always brings new light to the different questions non-believers raise as to why they don't believe. I love the O'Malley family and it has given me a good picture of what family means and what I'm searching for.

I really enjoy the game show Survivor! And I'm excited as the next one is the All-Stars! It will be Sunday, Feb. 1 right after the Superbowl!!! I caught the CBS Early Show telling who the 18 survivors will be.. and here they are!

From Pulau Tiga: Jenna L, Susan, Rudy, Richard
From Australian Outback: Tina, Colby, Alicia, Amber, Jerri
From Africa: Ethan, Lex, Tom
From Marquesas: Kathy, Boston Rob M
From Thailand: Shii-Ann
From Amazon: Jenna M, Rob C.
From Panama Islands: Rupert

Chapera Tribe will be: Alicia, Amber, Rob C., Rob M (Boston Rob), Susan, Tom
Saboga Tribe will be: Ethan, Jenna L., Jerri, Rudy, Rupert, Tina
Moga Moga Tribe will be: Colby, Jenna M (the winner), Lex, Kathy, Richard, Shii-Ann

It will be in Panama at the Pearl Island location again. They said that the way they chose who was going to be on the All-Stars was they asked all 112 who have participated before whether they were available. Then from those available they looked at who were the faves of the public and who had created the most drama etc. 2 people they picked said no..they didn't say who it was though. There 18 survivors this time and there will be 3 tribes, but that's all they really said. They asked Jeff Probst whose torch he was looking forward to snuffing the most and he thought for awhile and then said probably Richard Hatch because "he needs it". It definitely should be interesting and entertaining!
Friday Five!

Just a little behind this week..sorry! Actually there is no Friday Five for last week, so I'm doing the one for Dec. 26 since I missed that one with the holidays and all!

1. What was your biggest accomplishment this year?
Let's start with a hard one huh? Hmm.. biggest accomplishment? Probably facing some issues with my past. It was difficult, but working through it is bringing about a healing that couldn't have happened any other way.

2. What was your biggest disappointment?
That's something I'd rather not say out loud.

3. What do you hope the new year brings?
More understanding of people who don't know God.

4. Will you be making any New Year's resolutions? If yes, what will they be?

5. What are your plans for New Year's Eve?

We had a party at our house with our best friends, The Millers and my adopted sister Nikki :)

Friday, January 02, 2004

Happy New Year!

The last couple of weeks have been a blur! I was hoping that Christmas Break would be a time spent relaxing with the family, watching good movies, playing fun games, and maybe even reading a few new books! Oh my goodness, that has not happened! I have got to spend some good time with family that while it was fun ended up being under strained circumstances. My grandmother was sick the week before Christmas and got really bad the week of Christmas and finally passed on the day after Christmas. While we all know where she is and are thankful that she is no longer suffering, it was a stressful time for all of us.

Also, right before Christmas we found out that my oldest son will have to get tubes put back in his ears :( The procedure is fairly simple and there should be no complications, but we were hoping that this problem would be far behind us by now and instead it might stick around a bit longer. So we go Tuesday, Jan. 6 to have that done, and to make matters a bit more sticky, Josh will be unable to go with me because the other guy he works with took vacation that day. So prayers are greatly appreciated.

As I was thinking today, I was kind of astounded at the things that have happened the last couple of weeks and wondered why everything seems to happen at once. And the reason usually is, because it makes me forget about God. Not completely mind you, just enough that He sits on the back shelf where I throw in a few..help me out here God a couple of times. How easily I allow that to happen, but am thankful that He gently reminds me in many ways that He is there to carry what I'm going through. Thanks God!

Friday Five
(I missed last weeks--sorry!)

What one thing are you most looking forward to . . .

1. ...today?
My hubby coming home from work!

2. ...over the next week?
Getting through Jacob's surgery!

3. ...this year?
Camping with my family this summer!

4. ...over the next five years?
I have no idea.

5. ...for the rest of your life?
Just seeing where God takes me and my family!